*Story Title: Reasons
*Age Rating: 12
*Main Characters: Diana and Drake
*Summary: Second part to A Sentence Without Detail (See here >>
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(Set before Gone)
*Genre(s): Romantic
Did you ever wonder what it was like for me? To see you with him, I mean. It wasn't like this at the start. Upon your arrival, I had seen you first but in an instant of pointing you out, Caine had claimed you. Claimed. I'm making you sound like an object. That is how Caine thinks of you. You can see it in his eyes. Makes me feel disgusted. H looks at you with pure lust. He doesn't deserve that privilege.
The worst part is when I see you two together. It destroys me when I see the way you act with him. Teasing, playing. You use him, but what for? To try and find your heart? Let me tell you, Diana, you don't need a heart to live. I go by everyday just fine without one. I live for the fact I don't have a heart. And trust me Diana, I know. If it's love you're wanting, you don't need a heart for that either.
I would know.
It get's worse as each day passes. All I want Diana is one simple thing. You. The problem is, I can't have it. Not with Caine there. It's frustrating. Frustrating beyond belief. To take my mind off of it I hurt others and every time I see you, I do the same. Why not? Punish you for something you can't help. It's what I do best. I want you to hurt, Diana, like I do every morning when I wake up. It's strange to be feeling this though, because I have never loved anybody and then you come along and do this to me. You deserve the punishment, for making me feel weak.
And that's why I'll never act out on my feelings. That's why I'll bolt all my emotions away because no one can ever know. No one can ever have something to fight me with. Truth be have it, Diana, I wish I never felt like this. I wish I didn't love you because it just makes everything so complicated. I love you, no doubt about it, but I hate it.
I hate you.
